My lil Cricket Star!!

The Cricket world cup fever is definitely ON and for someone who claims to be a cricket champion, anything and everything is related to CRICKET!! :)
My sweet hubby who is a vital player of his company's cricket team...definitely wouldnt keep his baby out of the cricket madness. As the baby kicks and is active through out the day, i keep pestering hubby dear to feel the baby's movements. He seems quite impressed by what all the lil one can do inside. He has actually cobbled up his own stories about all that the baby might be doing inside and i cant deny how cute it sounds! So one of these days we were having a late lunch at a restaurant and the hubby was hurrying up to get back home to watch the ever interesting match between India and Endland. The baby usually gets quite active whenever i eat and starts moving around and kicking to make more space as if trying to tell me "Momma dont eat so much, i have no space!". I just cant stop smiling when it kicks! Its the cutest thing i have experienced in my life. So while we were still having lunch the baby wakes up and starts doing its usual kicking and moving around routine. I got all excited to feel the baby's kicks and my immediate reaction was to ask my hubby to feel my lil one's accomplishments. And the hubby's stimulus was to narrate another one of his amusing stories about the baby's world.
So the hubby started by saying: "What you are getting so excited as if you dint know baby is playing in the World Cup!". I was still laughing at his humor when he said, "Baby is playing a crucial match today. It would have hit a six thats why its celebrating by throwing its hands up!!".
Me: And how does the baby have a ball and a bat!?
Hubby: Oww please...its my baby...it doesnt need all that to play. It plays with all that it has! It plays its own matches all by itself. It bowls, and then it runs back to hit, and then it takes all catches by itself!
Me: Isnt it like the vodafone 3G guy?
Hubby: What you are comparing my baby to that 3G guy (though he is cute too) but my baby is jus too extraordinaire!! :)
Me: Cool...i am just happy with the fact that my cute one kicks and keeps talking to me in its own cute ways! The feeling is just matchless!

The one Yr Journey!

The Last one Yr!
I don’t know where to start cuz so many different iamges of different hues flash in front of me when I start thinking about the last eventful year in my life! The post, of course I started writing to mark the completion of one yr of my wedded life, but there were more changes in life than just the title of being a wife to someone. So lemme start from where my memories privilege me :)

When my spinster days were on the verge of getting over, I still dint come to the realization that a big change was gonna happen in my life. Since I had spoken to my fiance for quite a while, I just dint see any big change coming my way cuz I thought I already knew all that was ever there to know. But as they say you might never know the person even after having spent a lifetime with him/her under the same roof :) I dunno how much that is true but ya the art of actually "Knowing" your husband definitely takes time!! You can never be sure that you know "Everything" about someone cuz you have spoken to each other for long or spent time with each other or etc etc.

And marriage definitely brings a multitude of changes in the way u even think about issues in life. People always say that one is constantly learning thru out his/her life. We all cant deny that we all learn from our past experiences, be it with friendships, work mates, work life, life away from family etc etc. And wenever we look back at all the memories we sometimes laugh thinking how silly we were and sometime feel proud thinking how much we have grown and matured thru it all! It happens to everyone and as i am trying to turn the pages of this most recent and first year of my married life...i have varied memories. I dint really imagine before marriage that i would have to live away from my husband for even one day! During my spinster days i was clear in my thinking and knew what i wanted and what i needed to do. But as soon as you are married there are strings attached to even your thoughts. When before marriage i thought living away from husband was not even in the book of thoughts...it actually came to happen to me. And though not very happy about it...i still ended up staying away from hubby for more than 4 months. Those were the MOST difficult days of my life! I really dont even want to remember those days. I had stayed away from family quite sometime of my life but staying away from husband was one of the toughest things i had to put up with in my life! There were of course practical reasons for taking that decision but i am so happy that those days are over. And that brings me to the FIRST lesson i learnt in the last year. NEVER EVER FOR ANY REASON TAKE A DECISION OF STAYING AWAY FROM SPOUSE EVEN IF THE REASONS MIGHT SOUND VERY PRACTICAL AND VERY WORKABLE!

Hmm..so finally after all the distance and time..when we actually started living together, it was like my long awaited dream come true! I had always been homely in my outlook and wanted very simple things from my marriage. The only accomplishment i wanted from my marriage was to make my husband dear HAPPY no matter what. But though that sounds very simple and easy, its not that easy a job to accomplish. To make someone truly happy you've gotto really understand that person and then only can you know what makes him/her happy or sad or angry or excited etc etc. And this journey of understanding definitely takes time :) And i must say, even if you are completely aware of what can annoy or irritate a person, it definitely takes a lot of patience...NOT to do that same thing!!! :) Aww c'mon the wife is also a human and has her own likes and dislikes and opinions and issues...and when sometimes she does lose her patient nerve...its only fair!! :) It has been an interesting journey to know and understand my husband...and even if i cant really claim that i know him completely but atleast i am happy that the journey is still ON and going great!! :)

Friends and Chats: While i was a spinster there were very few topics of interest that we spoke to almost all the friends. Most of the friendships i made came easy in those days...project mates...class mates...hostel/PG mates...Blogger friends etc etc. Every other person we met ended up in the friend list on orkut or facebook...and that was fun. Parents ofcourse were always worried about marriage matters but all that mattered to me and my friends was...have fun "At the MOMENT". Life was easy and FUN! Not that life is not FUN anymore...but that was a different phase and this is a different phase. Most of the chats i used to have with friends were driven with the same effort...of understanding the opposite sex!! While it was great to know that someone in your team had a crush on you...sometimes it just didnt matter. The things that mattered in those days were so different than the things that metter now. While the effort still remains the same...understanding the opposite sex...it shrinks to understanding just one person...your spouse. Just yesterday while talking to one of the friends over phone we were reminding each other of what we used to speak before marriage and what we speak now...while the topics have changed...the older subjects of discussion kind of seem silly and funy in some sense. How much we have changed or matured over time...and still theres so much more yet to come! And while theres so much more yet to come...i am happy and excited to share each and every of it with my husband dear! I guess the first step in starting to enjoy marriage is to start a lifelong friendship with your spouse...it doesnt start easy like it used to before marriage...and it does take a lot of effort and understanding. But most important of all...it takes a lot of trust. Trust builds up in time...and am hoping that this first year of my marriage has brought me one step closer to conquering my husband's trust!

I have had a wonderful first year...with some experiences that every married woman has had...and some which very few have had...and am happy to have gone thru whatever i had to...am so happy to be married to my husband...and to spend my lifetime with him...to share my dreams and to be a part of his dreams...to slowly understand him step by step...to start loving him more and more with each passing day...this one year journey hopefuly brings me one step closer to conquering my destination...to become his "Better Half" :)

And now i kick!!

"Did mom tell you about the weird but cute things she has been feeling lately!?"
Thats my lil one talking for me! :) isnt that so adorable!! :)
Ya i have lately been feeling these weird kind of things in my tummy...first i thought its "The Usual" as pregnancy itself does so much to you and your belly! But then its quite persistent and i cant help smiling everytime i feel it! Its almost 10 days since i started feelin them and i am sure its not one of the pregnancy sickness etc. It feels like small water balloons are bursting inside of my tummy and these keep bursting for quite sometime...and then they stop. I cant feel anything outside, if i keep my hands on my belly but yes i definitely have felt my baby's first kicks :)
And everytime i feel it...its like the lil one is tryin to tell me something in its own cute and small ways! Its jus too adorable and so full of awe! My lil one communicating to me as if reminding me every 3-4 hrs of the day..."Mama i'm here...i'm here for u...i love u!" :)

I have a brain!

I've been thinking of consolidating some thoughts that i've been hearing too much these days - courtesy- Of course my husband!


Topic 1: Do Baby's think when their bodies are still developing while their brain is almost fully developed!? AKA the First Trimester!!


Hubby: Of course they think, they have a fully developed brain after all and we think with our brains only na!?


Me: Ya, but we have things to think about. What can they have to think about at all? We have so many issues now, when we were small we never used to think about anything so much. We think only when we have things to worry or think about right?


Hubby: What do u know what all they worry about! They will be talking to the angels now. The angels will be teaching them everything!


(At this i was a little stunned, but somehow i continued the discussions.)


Me: Ok fine if the angels are teaching them stuff. What actually can be the stuff they can be learning inside the uterus now!!??


Hubby: See the baby will be thinking about its daily life! What a boring life i have...i get up and see the same things, same fluid. How boring can life get...and thats all it will sleep. Then again it feels hungry and gets up! Now it thinks about its boring mom! What man, this mom doesnt even know that i get hungry and i need food! Why cant she eat something good and make me happy? Same tablets and same food she eats. And just when i am about to like something she goes and throws up everything outside! She needs some real brains! GOD please make her strong enough not to throw up things that are supposed to reach me please!


Me: Thats adorable. I will try to eat more now.


Hubby: See the baby doesnt even know if its day or night. Poor thing jus keeps waiting for food to reach to itself.


Me: OK OK don try to blackmail me too much. I am already very emotional these days!

Hubby: We think so much about the perfect house that we will build etc etc! How many bedrooms we will have, what kind of a living room and with what kind of furnishings, how many sitout areas, what kind of kitchen etc etc! Poor thing baby cant afford to even imagine all that now. It just has the same place to do everything it can...same place where it eats, sits, sleeps,...jus everything!! It doesnt even have light there to see anything...
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And my husband's thoughts about what the baby thinks and does inside of me is unending!! :)
i can just sit and adore how cute it is when i hear such things and how impressive GOD's greatness is to have planned everything for the life inside of a mother!!

REMINISCING THE YEARS GONE BY!

When you are revisiting the yellow pages of your life...it usually means that you are missing the days gone by too much may be becuz of the mundane life of today or becuz you are hurt too much by your present and long for the days gone by...or it can mean that you had a ball of a time in your past and wish it never ended...or may be in some cases it just simply means that you are BORED....cuz you have absolutely nothing to do!!! :)

Well in my case it simply means i have loads of time on my hands and its been long long long since i have been this idle!! And thats exactly the reason why i do not know what to do with so much time on my hands! Last 2 yrs of my life i feel had given me so much to handle and be engaged with that i had no time to sit back and think of what was happening or what wasnt. Work life had been busy and if it wasnt then there was much happening on the personal front to keep me engaged, and if nothing was keeping me busy at work or personal life i had invented ways to keep myself fully utilized. I was myself doing things as an attempt to make myself a better person making the best of my time and energy. Last few days i had been revisiting my older blog and my older posts...or old mails...or old song playlists! And all of it has given me an insight on what i was in those days and what i am now! All of it reminds me how much i have learnt in the last few years and how much i have changed and grown or matured. I would not list out...not one of my past experiences as something to regret. I have had an amazing spectrum of events which have finally moulded me to what i am now. i am not boasting myself who has/knows everything in life but i know that sometime in my life there have been experiences that everyone doesnt have, and some which everyone has...and i have learnt and grown thru everything.

They dont make them this good anymore!!

Reminiscent of the songs i grew up with!! Even now when they make a new album every other day...when a new artist or a new band emerges out of nowhere....nothing compares to the effect each song used to have when they really were songs! Most of the songs that i hear these days are rather abusive loads...about sex and drugs and about things i cannot feel or enjoy!! One of my friends at work once asked me why pretty keeps listening to all the mushy songs and keeps being in her own fairyland!! He suggested that i rather should listen to eminem, 50 Cents and some artists i cant even recall names of!! He said they make the real stuff...the mushy songs you listen to just make you long for a kind of love that doesnt even exist in the world anymore while these rap songs give the real picture of the love scene in the world right now!!! Jus rap your way and be happy...don think anything jus be happy!!! I was amazed that how come he was able to enjoy and love something that i cudnt even comprehend to being true! Was i really "OLD" for the real youngsters!!?? Why was i not able to forget enjoy even understand what one can enjoy in those stupid abusive loads!!


Today i was listening to all my fave songs from the past! Singers like Celine Dion, Richard Marx, Toni Braxton, Mariah Carey, Bryan Adams and some other old faves, they really made songs that could change your mood or your state of mind or actually give you relaxation. Gone are the days when music used to be a means to take your mind away from the present and make you time travel! It is not so that i dont like any of the songs of the present day but its difficult for me to "FEEL" any emotions listening to any of the songs these days. While i do like some songs by Rihanna, Lady GaGa, Eminem and others like Bad Romance, Rude Boy, Love the way you lie etc etc. but somehow these are the kind of songs that would not count on my list of all time faves. Its easy to listen enjoy and then forget these songs. While songs like Without you, Hero - Mariah Carey, In the Late of the night, Unbreak My heart, How could and Angel break my heart - Toni Braxton, Because you loved me, Its all coming back to me - Celine Dion, Everything i Do, Please forgive me, Summer of 69 - Bryan Adams, Until i find you again, Endless Summer Nights, Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx etc etc etc become something so special that you just cant write them off your minds and hearts. Even if the music industry is more advanced these days than ever and even if there are more platforms and chances for singers to come out and show off their talents...i must say...They dont make them this good anymore!

The Endhiran Effect!!

I still remember about 3 yrs back when i was in Chennai i was like at the zenith of boredom! Ya thats right i was bored!!! The reason being there was not one multiplex in Chennai playing anything... but...Sivaji!!!! OMG why does that rajnikanth guy have so much of a craze!!!!???? i personally do not see anything great in his acting skills...i mean i have watched bits and pieces of some of his movies and in almost all movies i feel he just wants to be procliamed and worshipped like a GOD!!! He wants people to worship him...he'll create an image like he is the saviour of the population and he is so great and bla bla...i just never liked any of his movies. I could just not find anything so appealing in the story or acting skills or look and feel of his movies that would persuade me to watch atleast ONE of his movies!

This year its the Endhiran effect. I would not say it is as mad as i remember the Sivaji one...but ya i can see that people are still crazy for nothing! My dear husband being a good deal of rajini fan...wanted to watch the movie ASAP!! Poor guy dint have anyone better to accompany him than his ever rajini critical wife: ME! I anyways decided to mellow down my demeanor towards the superstar and watch the movie as i would any other movie that i liked. End of the day: I would not say it was a bad movie but please i would not say it was the greatest movie i ever watched. Aishwarya anyways is not in my good books when it comes to her acting skills...she is just simply tooo made up! Theres nothing that she does on screen which would look natural or appealing to me! And this movie was like a double dose of "TOO MUCH" for me with 2 of a kind! :) But the movie was interesting to some bit but in my books it will just be counted as another tamil movie that i watched!

PS: No delinquency to any of the Rajini fans...its just that i cannot like him ever! :)