One String (Happily) Attached :)
Were there days when i craved for a life with no strings attached!? Hell yes! Smile. :)
And was there really even a s
ingle day that you lived a life without any strings!!?? Definitely NO!!
From whatever I can remember, I always used to wonder when will I ever live MY life! when I was young I used to feel suffocated that I have to do everything that my parents tell me to. Study well, eat well, drink milk everyday, sleep well, no playing after dark, no movies, no tv, no cartoons no....the list was endless! I used to feel deprived of everything I WANTED TO do...everything I would have LOVED TO do!! I wanted to get wet in the rain, wanted to watch movies in theater every weekend, wanted to wear short skirts, wanted to play till after dark, wanted to grow my hair longer, wanted to try makeup or be fashionable! jus too many desires that never breathed out of my own self in those days.
When I grew and started working and could afford to fulfill the desires that had long been buried inside of me, did I really find them prevail anymore!? All those desires did not even matter anymore, some even seemed silly... while most of it had been uprooted by the harsh realities that I had learnt while growing up at least some fortunate few still breathed with a desire to get fulfilled one day! And all this great time lapse had given the dawning to many new ones, which now made more sense to me. But I could only sit and laugh at the satire of life for the new identity I was now was as helpless as the old one even though the desires were a completely different set now. While one lives their whole lives trying to fulfill each one of their desires, to imagine and realize just how many strings actually pull those ones down was amazing! And that I guess is the fun in life. Else everyone's life would just be the same. How you handle and take over each of those strings makes all the difference I guess.
Now, when I feel I have lived at least half of my life, while I have played at least half of the roles I could possibly in this life, I feel I haven't seen any living being without any strings attached to their lives! Everyone's life is coherent at the basic levels...may be Divine Almighty's mysterious way of apportioning equality in HIS Kingdom! Though how we handle or mis-handle our strings is what makes our lives better or worse.
After many years of the forgotten bliss of listening to mushy songs on radio while retiring to sleep on the bed, I somehow wanted to rekindle it some while ago. After becoming a mom, in a very spontaneous way my very own identity has changed. There is no joy even comparable to the joy of seeing a part of you outside your own body, playing, laughing, crying...living a life outside of you! And it wouldn't even let you realize what that moment was when you stopped living for yourself, even thinking for yourself...this small being who is surviving outside of you is all you care about, is all you live for!! All the desires i spoke about in the beginning of this post somehow automatically take the backseat. I did not even realize my own existence until its for the only soul who hugs and cuddles himself in my arms to feel comfortable. While i am happy that i am just as important to him as he is to me...even though i might not care for my own existence...this small one does and that somehow keeps me connected to my real self at some alignment. So after many days or precisely years, i wanted to listen to some music to relax myself before i dozed off to sleep without even realizing that the radio was still ON on my phone and the earphones still plugged IN to my ears! While the music still relaxed me, and still took me on fantasy voyages with my thoughts traversing beyond my imagination...something was different!! it didn't feel the same as it used to...a couple of years ago! my thoughts constantly kept coming back to the little adorable soul lying next to me! my instants telling me that there's more comfort and relaxation in just hugging that cute thing next to you than even listening to the most comforting music ever! And that is when i realized...i am not ever gonna have this life pass without having my child in my thoughts or actions. I love my son to the extent i cant define in words, and this cute string in my life is the one that is the best thing that happened to me. My life is never gonna be the same without him...and i know this one is always gonna prevail unlike the other desires which fled! My sweet son...mumma is never gonna another moment in her life without having you in her thoughts :)
YOU are the one string that is HAPPILY attached to my life !!
From whatever I can remember, I always used to wonder when will I ever live MY life! when I was young I used to feel suffocated that I have to do everything that my parents tell me to. Study well, eat well, drink milk everyday, sleep well, no playing after dark, no movies, no tv, no cartoons no....the list was endless! I used to feel deprived of everything I WANTED TO do...everything I would have LOVED TO do!! I wanted to get wet in the rain, wanted to watch movies in theater every weekend, wanted to wear short skirts, wanted to play till after dark, wanted to grow my hair longer, wanted to try makeup or be fashionable! jus too many desires that never breathed out of my own self in those days.
When I grew and started working and could afford to fulfill the desires that had long been buried inside of me, did I really find them prevail anymore!? All those desires did not even matter anymore, some even seemed silly... while most of it had been uprooted by the harsh realities that I had learnt while growing up at least some fortunate few still breathed with a desire to get fulfilled one day! And all this great time lapse had given the dawning to many new ones, which now made more sense to me. But I could only sit and laugh at the satire of life for the new identity I was now was as helpless as the old one even though the desires were a completely different set now. While one lives their whole lives trying to fulfill each one of their desires, to imagine and realize just how many strings actually pull those ones down was amazing! And that I guess is the fun in life. Else everyone's life would just be the same. How you handle and take over each of those strings makes all the difference I guess.
Now, when I feel I have lived at least half of my life, while I have played at least half of the roles I could possibly in this life, I feel I haven't seen any living being without any strings attached to their lives! Everyone's life is coherent at the basic levels...may be Divine Almighty's mysterious way of apportioning equality in HIS Kingdom! Though how we handle or mis-handle our strings is what makes our lives better or worse.
After many years of the forgotten bliss of listening to mushy songs on radio while retiring to sleep on the bed, I somehow wanted to rekindle it some while ago. After becoming a mom, in a very spontaneous way my very own identity has changed. There is no joy even comparable to the joy of seeing a part of you outside your own body, playing, laughing, crying...living a life outside of you! And it wouldn't even let you realize what that moment was when you stopped living for yourself, even thinking for yourself...this small being who is surviving outside of you is all you care about, is all you live for!! All the desires i spoke about in the beginning of this post somehow automatically take the backseat. I did not even realize my own existence until its for the only soul who hugs and cuddles himself in my arms to feel comfortable. While i am happy that i am just as important to him as he is to me...even though i might not care for my own existence...this small one does and that somehow keeps me connected to my real self at some alignment. So after many days or precisely years, i wanted to listen to some music to relax myself before i dozed off to sleep without even realizing that the radio was still ON on my phone and the earphones still plugged IN to my ears! While the music still relaxed me, and still took me on fantasy voyages with my thoughts traversing beyond my imagination...something was different!! it didn't feel the same as it used to...a couple of years ago! my thoughts constantly kept coming back to the little adorable soul lying next to me! my instants telling me that there's more comfort and relaxation in just hugging that cute thing next to you than even listening to the most comforting music ever! And that is when i realized...i am not ever gonna have this life pass without having my child in my thoughts or actions. I love my son to the extent i cant define in words, and this cute string in my life is the one that is the best thing that happened to me. My life is never gonna be the same without him...and i know this one is always gonna prevail unlike the other desires which fled! My sweet son...mumma is never gonna another moment in her life without having you in her thoughts :)
YOU are the one string that is HAPPILY attached to my life !!
