Pretty Woman
Pretty Woman is one sweet movie with some sweet moments and some really touching ones. I will always rave Richard and Julia on screen, they make an awesome pair.
Do i miss my stay in US of A so much? O yess definitely theres not just a single day that passes without me thinking about how much i miss my routine in US, how much i miss the chill in the air, how much i miss the calm roads, how much i miss the ever greeting people or how much i miss even the feeling of opening my eyes in the morning in a free and happy nation...in USA. Even the feeling is different.
My last month in US was predominantly engaged in meeting up friends i never took time to meet when i was happy with my daily busy routine! I had fun catching up on some of the fun that i had been missing in my busy life! The world seemed to be like a BIIG pot full of friendship and happiness. I was sad that i was leaving US but then i was just happy that i had been part of such a beautiful and lively place! There was not one weekend that i sat at home doing "NOTHING"!! I was just strangely happy about everything happening around me, the warm yet cool breeze of the spring, the spirit of seeing everything before i left NY, the long To Do lists which never got over even when i was sitting on my flight back to India, i was just too happy untill i was at the airport and realised that i was not gonna go back to that life again! All i could do was hug my brother and cry...i couldnt believe i was crying so loud to leave a country where no one was mine!! The last one year that i spent in US was THE BEST days of my life i guess! Each and every day that i spent there would count to a million drops of happiness, and even the harsh of the hardships that i struggled tehre would not even count to a dime. I love it so so much.
I still hum that song which i used to sing oh so often in US. And even humming that song gives me a kind of soothing feeling inside of me. Aaja main hawaon pe bitha ke le chalun, Tu hi tho meri Dost hai...Aaja main khalaon mein uthake le chalun, Tu hi tho meri Dost hai!!
I did miss my family initially but this amazing country has the capacity to make you strong and independent no matter who you are or where you come from or what your state of mind is/was! I had written in my previous post also that life for me in US was not a piece of dessert, but the way this country moulded me into the kind of a strong person that i have become today, couches awe even in me. I learnt a very important lesson in my life, which i might have heard a million times before but never experienced personally. Nothing in this life is so BIG to matter more than YOU yourself! Ya if i was the romantic emotional and sentimental sweet little girl that i once used to be, i would have definitely said that when you are in Love, your love matters even more than yourself! But now today i can clearly say that nothing is so big or important that it has to matter more than yourself to you! Nothing or no one is so much important that you cant live without, time and life throw a mysterious play to make you live for yourself and only yourself. Once you discover this one truth you know you have learnt the true meaning of freedom of being free from all shackles. USA definitely is a free country, cuz it gave me a sense of freedom that i never experienced being in my own homeland. I started loving myself so much that nothing else mattered anymore! Sometimes i used to wonder have i become selfish, has my identity changed, have i lost what i had in me as a person!? May be i have, i still dont have answers to these questions but i know it was jus meant to be this way. I miss my other self sometimes, the naive girl i once used to be, but more than that, being back in India i miss my freedom.
India no doubt is my homeland my motherland, but somehow the dirty things in here have started showing up as something too prominent now. The dirty politics, the corruption at each and every step of life, the dirty minds of people, the dirty crimes, the people who cannot mind their own businesses but have to poke their noses into every other person's life, the stupid policies of the government which is just a play of politics where politicians play their games only for their own good and not one thing for the betterment of the public, etc etc etc. I tried but just couldnt find one reason to be happy to be back in my homeland, though i wanted to be.