Monday, June 28, 2010

Pretty Woman

Richard Gere and Julia Roberts...i guess one of the on screen couples i have raved the most. They just seem to have such great chemistry that you dont feel its a fictional story you are watching on screen, rather they make it feel like a real one you are witnessing in front of you. I Love Julia Roberts for the way she flaunts her skills easily and naturally on screen...and Richard Gere is one of the few actors in hollywood whom i consider HOT. I love watching this couple on screen. Pretty Woman is one movie i have never been able to watch completely but always caught glimpses here and there. I was happy to watch it on Star yesternight but again unfortunately i watched only the last half of it. One sweet movie with a strange storyline but some sweet moments. I love the way Vivian (Julia) effortlessly puts her Knight fairytale in front of Edward (Richard) cuz while every girl has some or the other fairytale about her prince charming she just spends the most of her life trying to convince herself that fairytales never happen in real life. I feel this part as a sweet one where she snuggles herself upto a sleeping Edward and thinks deeply about how much she likes this guy she is cuddling upto and finally says I Love You. I like alot of scenes from the movie and especially like this one where Vivian is ready to leave him and carries all the dresses she had bought in the last couple of days and though she doesnt want to leave she just says give me my money i am leaving. The way Edward just throws the money on the bed and doesnt even look back at her and the way she walks out of the door. This scene is a typical example of how a woman and man in a relationship, even though they are fond of each other, are just not ready to give up their ego. This is exactly the same thing that sometimes intensifies and corrodes alot of relationships. The way Vivian just looks at the money and doesnt even think of picking it i feel shows the true nature of how much a woman wants to be felt wanted even when she knows she is wanted. I cant stop myself from humming Bryan Adam's few lines... When you love a Woman, you tell her that she is really wanted. When you love a woman you tell her that she is the one. Cuz she needs somebody to tell her taht its gonna last forever.
Pretty Woman is one sweet movie with some sweet moments and some really touching ones. I will always rave Richard and Julia on screen, they make an awesome pair.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Tu hi To Meri Dost Hai...

Do i miss my stay in US of A so much? O yess definitely theres not just a single day that passes without me thinking about how much i miss my routine in US, how much i miss the chill in the air, how much i miss the calm roads, how much i miss the ever greeting people or how much i miss even the feeling of opening my eyes in the morning in a free and happy nation...in USA. Even the feeling is different.

My last month in US was predominantly engaged in meeting up friends i never took time to meet when i was happy with my daily busy routine! I had fun catching up on some of the fun that i had been missing in my busy life! The world seemed to be like a BIIG pot full of friendship and happiness. I was sad that i was leaving US but then i was just happy that i had been part of such a beautiful and lively place! There was not one weekend that i sat at home doing "NOTHING"!! I was just strangely happy about everything happening around me, the warm yet cool breeze of the spring, the spirit of seeing everything before i left NY, the long To Do lists which never got over even when i was sitting on my flight back to India, i was just too happy untill i was at the airport and realised that i was not gonna go back to that life again! All i could do was hug my brother and cry...i couldnt believe i was crying so loud to leave a country where no one was mine!! The last one year that i spent in US was THE BEST days of my life i guess! Each and every day that i spent there would count to a million drops of happiness, and even the harsh of the hardships that i struggled tehre would not even count to a dime. I love it so so much.

I still hum that song which i used to sing oh so often in US. And even humming that song gives me a kind of soothing feeling inside of me. Aaja main hawaon pe bitha ke le chalun, Tu hi tho meri Dost hai...Aaja main khalaon mein uthake le chalun, Tu hi tho meri Dost hai!!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Half a Decade!!

20th day of June, 2005. One of the most memorable days of my Life!! This was the blessed day when i joined the IT industry through an elite company called Satyam Computer Services. Turning back the pages of the calender takes me back to that happy day when i was taking my first steps to enter a new world, the real practical world. It meant a change in my lifestyle, in my priorities, in my understanding of the issues in life and most importantly in my mindset.



As i flip through the yellow bruised pages of my memory book, i can just not neglect the fact how elated i was on that day! I was starting a new life, a new change in everything i guess. I can never forget how excited i was, it felt as if i could have challenged the whole world for anything. The whole 10 hour long induction at the CC (Convention Center) of STC (Satyam Technology Center) i guess gave me a new confidence in myself. Something i had almost lost staying in Sathyabama for 4 years i guess!! I was so proud of myself. Little did i know at that time what all challenges the IT life was gonna throw at me since that blessed day! the whole 90 day ELTP program at STC was like an extended picnic. Making new friends, learning new stuff, experiencing things in life which i hadnt in my college days cuz now i had the money to do it, I was on the road to becoming independent and more mature and i was really enjoying it. After the ELTP program got over, it was the usual race for getting into a good project for a good client etc etc. Though i managed to get a good project i was not very happy with going back to Chennai for the project. I was excited as i was gonna work for MARS chocolates!! My project days in MARS were again a joy ride of new things and new experiences. After working on VAX/VMS i was working on .NET for Pedigree. I dint mind whetever i was working on cuz i was absolutely enjoying being part of real projects and learning new things. The whole 2.8 yrs that i spent in Satyam was a memorable one and even on the last day when i was writing the goodbye mail i just couldnt call it a reality! I was sad at leaving Satyam but quite as much excited at my new experiences in my new company HCL. After joining HCL though i did not have any excitement left as there was no time for that!! I had a boring induction compared to the exciting one at Satyam. I was greeted by boring HRs compared to the smart and stylish ones at Satyam. I came to know some of the most stupid policies of HCL which were actually understood basics in Satyam!! Anyways i dont have much to complain about my work in HCL cuz i was never "FREE" in HCL. I had an amazing learning experience as much as technology is concerned cuz i was always learning something new! And most importantly HCL gave me my blessed 1 year at US, which i am really happy about!! I have put my papers with HCL and am waiting for them to approve the same so that i can join my new company which i am really excited about! The whole 2.3 years in HCL have taught me alot more about my work than what i learnt in Satyam and i am happy about it. I guess hcl has made me more experienced and mature both technology wise and also in a way to deal with people at professional front!

When i was graduating from my college as a Computer Science Engineer, i hated being called a software engineer, and i never imagined i would survive in this industry for anything more than a couple of years! I tried everything possible to come out of it. I wanted to write a GRE, i wrote GMAT and scored well enough to get admits from 3-4 good univs in the US, i wrote CAT and scored decent enough to secure interview calls from some decent enough colleges if not the IIMs...i posted my resume for non technical positions whenever possible...i just did everything possible in the last 5 years only to realise that whatever has to happen will happen no matter what you do or what you dont do!! When i think of my 5 years struggle thru IT industry, i cant say i am unhappy now...but i can definitely say that it has taught me grave realities of the REAL world which i doubt if i would have learnt being somewhere else. I can stil not say that i love my work, but right now i think i know my work! I dont know how work or life will be in my new company, but i am happy that i am atleast excited to face it. I have given half a decade of my life to this industry and gained thru it, and i am sure i am prepared to face it for a longer time now!!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Motherland!!

It looked like a quiet serene night in Chennai on the 2nd of June 2010 when my flight from Brussels was preparing to land at the Kamaraj Airport in Meenambakkam. I was sitting on a window seat and peeped out to see the land i had left about a year ago to go to a country that had attracted so many people from my motherland. I couldnt believe that i was sad, i was almost in tears! i couldnt believe that i was actually missing a country that never belonged to me! What so big had happened that i was not happy even to be back in my own homeland? Life in the US of A had been the BEST experience of my life till date. Be it in meeting people, meeting cultures, learning about different aspects of life, becoming more technically sound etc etc. I have had some of the bestest experiences of my life in that country and i just cant forget any single day that i spend in that blessed land. One year ago when i was leaving India i was sad thinking i am going to a new country where i dont know anyone and i am going to be so alone. But even though the first few months were really tough for me in that country, it still has taught me stuff that i bet i would never have been able to learn being in India. New York! New York i guess is the BEST place on earth. New Yorkers are believed to be arrogant city people but even then i couldnt stop myself from admiring them for all that they were. One year in that blessed country gave me a sense of kind of hatred for Indians for the kind of people they are and teh kind of mentality that they carry. I am not claiming it to be a very healthy attitude that i might have developed but still people in US are some of the best people i have seen in my life till now.

I did miss my family initially but this amazing country has the capacity to make you strong and independent no matter who you are or where you come from or what your state of mind is/was! I had written in my previous post also that life for me in US was not a piece of dessert, but the way this country moulded me into the kind of a strong person that i have become today, couches awe even in me. I learnt a very important lesson in my life, which i might have heard a million times before but never experienced personally. Nothing in this life is so BIG to matter more than YOU yourself! Ya if i was the romantic emotional and sentimental sweet little girl that i once used to be, i would have definitely said that when you are in Love, your love matters even more than yourself! But now today i can clearly say that nothing is so big or important that it has to matter more than yourself to you! Nothing or no one is so much important that you cant live without, time and life throw a mysterious play to make you live for yourself and only yourself. Once you discover this one truth you know you have learnt the true meaning of freedom of being free from all shackles. USA definitely is a free country, cuz it gave me a sense of freedom that i never experienced being in my own homeland. I started loving myself so much that nothing else mattered anymore! Sometimes i used to wonder have i become selfish, has my identity changed, have i lost what i had in me as a person!? May be i have, i still dont have answers to these questions but i know it was jus meant to be this way. I miss my other self sometimes, the naive girl i once used to be, but more than that, being back in India i miss my freedom.

India no doubt is my homeland my motherland, but somehow the dirty things in here have started showing up as something too prominent now. The dirty politics, the corruption at each and every step of life, the dirty minds of people, the dirty crimes, the people who cannot mind their own businesses but have to poke their noses into every other person's life, the stupid policies of the government which is just a play of politics where politicians play their games only for their own good and not one thing for the betterment of the public, etc etc etc. I tried but just couldnt find one reason to be happy to be back in my homeland, though i wanted to be.

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