No i am not gonna start writing lyrics of a song again...which touched me this way and that way and bla bla.. :)
Way Back into Love is actually the song that i use as my ringtone...and has suddenly become as popular in the office as me...hehehe...Lol i never thought i would become so popular in the Client office as i was in HCL India office...but i was surprised when i came back from 1 month vacation after my wedding and everyone was asking me where i had been all this while...and some impatient ones had actually asked the others in IT department about me!! They were asking for my wedding pictures!! And some other less fortunate ones...dint want to even look at me after i came back...yup they were jus too heart broken to smile and look at me...knowing that i was now married.. :)
I was more amazed when one girl walked to me few days before Valentines day and said...excuse me could you please tell me whats the name of the song that you have as your ringtone? i like the song very much and i want to gift my boyfrnd a CD with this song in it for Valentines! i smiled and told her the name and i also told her that it will be there in the soundtrack of the movie Music and Lyrics. Again a couple of days later...i was jus leaving home and rushing out as usual for catching my train when this called me from behind me...and said hey pretty...ur name is pretty right!! i said yes...she smiled and said its stupid but i like your ringtone alot...it sounds very sweet...where did u get this song from? i told her where i got it from...and walked out...jus thinking how popular my ringtone is among these people!! just about a week back the lady from my team told me you have a very nice ringtone but the song just stops suddenly...its a very nice song!! And...again...today one lady patted me and told me...she needed to TALK to me...now when the business people want to "TALK" to you...you actually get a little tensed!! she started talking and said everytime your phone rings...and even before she could say anything more...i blurted out oh i am sorry it always rings when i am away from my desk...i will keep it in silent from now on...and she interrupted..No no...its absolutely fine...we all like it here...is that a song or something that u have as your ringtone...i was surprised and said yes...she smiled and said...just write me the name of the song when u get time...not necessarily now but whenever u get time.
Hmm...i was really happy knowing that people like my ringtone...i was happy thinking that how unique it is...bla bla...that is when i realised...may be i should start keeping my phone on silent...cuz it always rings the moment i am away from my desk...the whole day i will be sitting and working and it will never ring at those times...i guess that happens with everyone...and i hate keeping my phone on silent...and thats why i chose such a soothing ringtone...i remember i changed to this ringtone more than a year back and since then i have always liked it while people in india always felt it was too low to be heard...Anyways...now i know i have a good one and dont plan on changing it soon...now it feels good to know that i have a real good ringtone!!
Feb 21, 2008...this is one date in my Life that i will never forget!!!
This is the date i joined the esteemed organization called HCL Technologies Ltd. I can just never forget this date ever becuz this was the worst experience i could count of the first day in any company...back then...and even now!!! Yes, one might wonder what could have been so bad that i am writing such cheesy things about it!!! But if any of my readers have been part of a more professional organization before...they will know the reason as they read.. :)
I can never ever forget the wonderful experience that i had on the first ever day of my professional carreer...and i am glad that waas with a superb and professional organization like Satyam Computers. Ya many may say that it doesnt exist anymore...but i know all Satyamites know the joy of being a satyamite...of being an ELTP!! joining Satyam as an Entree Level Trainee Professional was one of the best things that i have encountered in my professional life till date. The joining formalities in a top notch 5Star hotel in secunderabad...with a systematic, non chaotic completion of all formalities...training in Satyam Technology Centre, Bahadurpally...one of the best office campuses i have seen in my Life...the training days in east wing and convention centre...both were some of the best professional days of my life...the cafetaria with amazing variety of food...with all the great things that satyam was offering...i never minded going to office at weird times...be it 5 in the morning or 3 in the afternoon...staying till whatever time...going even on Saturdays....life was actually Mast in those days!!! Life after ELTP...well i thought will be full of REAL projects and no fun...but i actually had some of my best project days working with amazing clients like Mars chocolates...Mars was the first project of my professional carreer and will always be very close to my heart...i made some good friends there...and even lost some...i learnt some very important lessons of my professional carreer in those few months that i worked with Mars...but will still remain some of the BEST days of my professional life...may be even better than my ELTP Days!!! I still talk to my manager in Mars...and can still say about him that he will help me when i ask for any kind of help...be it professional or personal...working in a project in those days was like a second family for me...i used to look forward to coming to work...meet friends from work even on weekends...whenever i think about those days...i can just go on and on and on with memories...
I did suffer being on bench in Satyam...i cant deny that...but that suffering was not becuz Satyam was bad at resource allocation...may be it was a little disoriented when it came to resource allocation...but also becuz some stupid brainless and saddistic people were entrusted with doing the most important work...allocating resources to projects!!! Atleast in Chennai this was the case!!! But even then...even on bench...one of the most depressing period in life of a software professional...even during those days we could manage having the BEST days!!! My last days in Satyam were full of fun...sitting in the cafetaria...gossipping...eye candy-ing...bunking office and watching movies wid frnds...attending stuuuupid seminars...signing proxies for friends...what all and what not!!! i had THE best days of my professional life in Satyam!!
And after all the fun times...i joined a company called HCL Technologies!!! dont even ask what the interview and the selection process did to me!!! its worth writing a new post for that...but this post is dedicated to me commemorating the awful adjuncts that i went thru on this auspicious date.. :)
ya...so i joined this company...and the first day...the joining formalities...was i expecting it to be in a 5star hotel or something!!?? ok i wasnt expecting that!!! but i still was expecting a professional welcome...with some professional HRs...and some professional people joining with me on that day...was this too much that i expected?? i guess no! i expected what every and any individual will expect from a CMM Level5 company!! so i took an auto and reached this nice office building in Egmore, Chennai...one of the good areas of chennai...the building was good with some really nice organizations like Jet Airways having their office in the same building...and some other international organizations also...i forgot teh name now!! but ya i felt ok the office is atleast in a good building...i step inside...the receptionist says some floor name for HCL Technologies...i guess it was floor 2!! so i take the elevator...reach floor 2...and all i can say after reaching there is that...the reception area dint appeal me so much!! i din feel very excited to be there...but i thought to myself...let me not judge the company by a meagre reception area...and i waited for the receptionist to come.. :) ( ya i know usually in all offices the receptionist is always the person who greets u first...unfortunately here none of the receptionist will do that...instead they will just come and stare at u...and finally ask u some rude questions!! this is something i learnt after spending some days in different HCL offices...guess the security gaurds are better suited for a receptionist job cuz they atleast will smile at u...but dont u dare smile at any receptionist in HCL...esp if u are a smart looking girl..he he he.. :)) anyways...finally the receptionist came and she told me 2 go to some training hall number 1 or something like that!! joining formalities in a training hall!!?? that dint sound something very "Professional" to me...but anyways...i was still keeping my cool...so i go inside this weird training hall...and i see some chairs have been arranged...and the look of the training hall was not something that was gonna impress me after i had seen A1 class of training halls in Satyam!! but i was still keeping my patient nerve ON...finally some dumb looking guy came and said a HI...and he introduced himself as the HR who takes care of the joining formalities!! i was kind of shocked!! i was jus thinking that the day will be as good as the joining day of Satyam...many of my friends had warned me not 2 expect too much from the laterals joining day!! its boring in all organizations...but still i was thinking atleast some...if not goodlooking atleast smart looking HR will address it for us!!! anyways...i thought may be the best is yet 2 come!!! so i was sitting in that boring room...with some boring people...and doing all that they told us to do!! worst part was when they told us to go to some room where they wanted our pictures for the ID Cards to be taken!! i had carried some really good passport pictures of mine as the HCL people had asked for some 16 passport pictures for joining and 5 passport pictures with white background!! but unfortunately they dint use even one of those pictures rather they led us to a room which was as shabby as my mindset about HCL at that time!! If the room was shabby with all kinds of papers, boxes...cartons etc etc scattered everywhere...the camera should hav atleast been a good one...it was not even an SLR or something...it was a cheesy digital camera...and am sure it dint have a resolution of anything more than 5 MPX...huh...if this was not enough!! the worst of the day was to come during the lunch time...but till lunch they took our lives out playing boring Direction'08 videos where some stupidly boring guy went on talking talking and just talking about the hierarchy structure etc etc in HCL. Inagine this...its a damp boring room with boring people with no lights and some hieghtedly boring video going on the projector screen...is it not natural for any sane person to fall asleep?? absolutely...so i fell asleep even while keenly trying 2 undersstand and take notes about HCL and how it functions...and worse part was i was not able 2 even fall asleep properly...cuz i was constantly being disturbed by snoring from the back seats!!! anyways...after every 1 hr or so...the boring HR will come and interrupt the boring videos and ask us if we had a good sleep!!! Now this is definitely where i lost any enthu...and i knew it aint getting better ever...this is all wat HCL is...stupid and boring and definitely not CMM Level5 standards!!...i knew my stay here is gonna be super boring...and i knew i had to look for a better job...atleast a better company!! :(
Anyways at about 1:00 Pm or so...the boring HR came and said you guys can go and have lunch at 5th (or 8th i don remember the floor number) Floor...Lunch has been arranged for you you can pay and have south indian meals!!! i was like...puhhlease...dont tell me i have to pay for lunch...is HCL such a big bhikhari company that it cudnt arrange for even a simple meal for some 15-20 people!!! forget 5Star and all...atleast a normal south indian meals!!?? uff...i was like all blabbering to myself...when all of us came out of the boring training room...stretched ourselves and started towards the lift...now the lift...it had floors written upto only 4!! so we were wondering...and just then the HR came and told us...this goes only till the 4th floor...you can take up the stairs after that!! i was not expecting to get anymore upset with anymore stupidity of HCL...i had anyways rated it as not having anything even close to professionalism...We reached 4th floor...started climbing the stairs...and volla...it leads to the terrace of the building...which looked more like a dumping ground for all imginable storage and waste items...some of the smart ones...made a wise decision and said sorry we cant have lunch here....and sneaked out to the nearby eatouts...they definitely were the smart ones...cuz if u are anyways paying for the food...it makes perfect sense to pay the same and have a better meal somewhere else...but me...i din wanna wander about in the HOT chennai sun at mid afternoon and fall unconscious somewhere...so i paid and had that distasteful meal...of which i wud have hardly eaten anything more than the sweet...
By the time lunch was over...the patience saturation of my patient nerve was also over...i wanted to literally run back home...or may be run back to Satyam...i cudnt believe that i had made such a BIG mistake...i cudnt believe that i will never be able to call Satyam, my own company! i was no longer a Satyamite...and that really hurt now!! anyways...the post lunch session was again as boring as the pre one...but fortunately they brought the bank people from deutsche bank (who by the way were the only smart people i saw that day) and the other formalities like filling form for transferring PF etc started and i cudnt thank GOD more that dreaded day was finally over!! But that was not it...there was something scheduled for the next day as well...and i sure dont remember a thing of what happened the next day... All the greatness of the first day itself was enough for me to call this company "The KING of Unprofessionalism"
Till today i have not been able to find a single employee of this company whom i can call as being professional...except for a couple of people whom i know were associated with Satyam previously...but i guess after working 2-3 years with this company...anyone can become totally devoid of professionalism...My life in HCL till now...has been a good one...though i have learnt that you work only for yourself not for the company...a completely selfish attitude is what i have developed after working here...and now when someone says..."Love your work, not your company"...i can totally agree to that.. :)
17th February '2010...Lent starts today and for me Lent is something that has always carried more value in my spiritual life than Christmas or any other Christian festival. I have observed lent since i was a child i guess, may be when i did not even know the real meaning of Lent. I would thank my parents for having infused so much importance for such religious beliefs. Since last 6 years, I have observed lent as a more serious aspect for enhancing my spirituality, my closeness to the Almighty.
This year is my first lent in US and i am not very excited about it. I am in the US and that means i would be breaking the lent without family. That is something that doesnt really make me very excited as i believe partaking with family makes it more spiritual and complete. But i guess experiencing difficult situations is also a route to being close to GOD. Being in a country like US, i was not expecting to see much religiousness around me. But i was surprised to see people talking about Ash Wednesday, about going to church, about Lent. When i first landed in US, i did get a culture shock! But since my brother has been staying here for about 7 years now and i keep hearing stories about different things here, i was still doing ok after the culture shock. I had been to a couple of American churches here and after seeing the spiritual life here, i could clearly say how different it is from India. After meeting so many people who by birth are christians but by practice are atheist, I was not expecting people to be giving any kind of importance to observing Lent or anything related to Lent. But by the end of the day i did happen to see a few people having ash on their foreheads, and a few people talking about going to church for the evening service, meeting up for the ash wednesday mass etc etc. Its sad to see that after how much this country has been blessed by GOD in terms of so many wonderful things, people have become so comfortably unbothered of their creator. But at the start of the holy lenting days, i am happy to see that there still are a few of them who do respect HIM.
I am just hoping that this lent moulds me to become more of a person that GOD wants me to be and i get closer to fulfill HIS purpose for me, cuz without HIM i am nothing but Ash.
Wishing everyone a very happy Valentine's Day...ya i know am a day late in wishing...but i jus hope all had a good one...a really memorable one.. :)
No i am not really gonna share my Valentine's Day secrets with you...cuz being away from my sweet hubby doesnt really make any celebration worthwhile for me...but that doesnt mean i am gonna let go of this greatest celebration of Love pass by without even writing or talking about it... :)
I am so sure so many of us would have mused about the existence of a whole day to celebrate Love... and many of us would have actually delved into google and wiki to know the history of Valentines...where and how did anyone ever start to celebrate such a thing. Even i did my research aboout it and while i read thru different links on google and wiki...all i could end up with is...its just a Day for celebrating LOVE!! The greatest emotion of all... :)
I guess there are more tales about the origin of Valentines or Valentines day that there are arrows in cupid's quiver.. :) One Legend talks about a Saint named Valentine who used to perform secret marriages when the Roman Emperor Claudius II had established a rule that soldiers should remain single during their service tenure...Many more legends talk about some Saint or Priest who was executed or martyred on Feb 14th...some talk about Feb 14th as a starting date when birds come to find their mates...while others state that Valentine was a Christian who was imprisoned for his faith and while he was in sentence he fell in love with the jailors daughter...was execuuted on Feb 14th 269 A.D...and before he was executed had sent a letter to the jailor's daughter stating "From your Valentine"
The first Valentine Card is believed to have been sent by Charles, Duke of Orleans to his Wife in 1415, when he was a prisoner in the Tower of London. Its still on display at the British museum...By 1450 Valentine was the name of one's Sweetheart...By 1530 it was a folded piece of paper...In 1610 "Valentines" were gifts given to sweethearts...In the 1800's it again meant messages exchanged by couples...With so many definitions and legends for "Valentines", the next time someone asks you to be their Valentine...you might want to be sure they dont want you to be their martyr.. :)
But for sentimentals in love...even becoming a martyr for their love...just means an expression of Love...no wonder so many people were slayed/executed/burried/martyred for their Love...be it the love for their faith or for their sweetheart...We are blessed to have been born in an era where we do not have to often give up our lives to express our love...there are far more impoverished and interesting ways of doing it.. :)
When you read about Valentines day celebrations throughout the world...you can very well qoute different ways in which people around the world commemorate this great celebration of love...in some countries the lovers gift each other flowers...while in some countries they send out cakes made out of chocolate...while some countries they send out heart and cupid shaped gifts and confectionaries...while in some countries like korea...the guy gifts chocolates to their sweethearts while the girl in return gifts non chocolate candies to the man...the whole world has different ways of celebrating this great commemoration of love...but the bottomline still remains the same...celebrate LOVE...
Sadly when we read about Valentine's day celebrations in the past few years in countries like India, Pakistan etc...we can only qoute of different religious groups opposing this celebration by giving hollow reasons like its a way of contamintaing their divine culture...or spreading Christianity in a non christian dominant nation...or even things like its an unnecessary attempt of westerners to impose their culture on us etc etc...when the whole world is uniting in one simple celebration of Love...some protectors of religion/culture cant protect/support celebration of the greatest emotion in all religions...LOVE...thats irony!!!
Just hoping that this Valentine's no one has to take the martyr way to prove/express their love...cuz atleast in my view...dying to express how much u love a person is just not the done thing...one can just express their stupidity by doing so...cuz if u really love a person u will want 2 LIVE for them...to show them how beautiful their life can be with all the love u give them... :)
I have finished the first 30 days of my married life...though its quite a happy thing...and i am happy about it also...but i really dont feel as excited as i had always anticipated it to be!! i cant believe it that i dint even stay for a whole one month with my husband...out of the 30 days...i stayed only for about 18 days with him. That was way too less time together...and with Valentine's Day over the weekend...i just dont feel happy :(
I never imagined myself as what i am now...i used to tell all my friends that i will leave my job as soon as i get married and have a long long honeymoon...i will wear a new saree everyday...i will cook new dishes everyday...go to new movies on all weekends...etc etc...i had a catalogue in my mind that was just going on getting appended right from the day i thought about marriage! i dont even remember when i started imagining my marriage...right from the days when i was a small girl...i had imagined what kind of a man i would marry...what kind of a dress i would wear...what kind of a cake i would cut for the reception...what all and what not!! And today when i see myself...i cant help but be sad that i am not with him even before a month got over! Is it someone's mistake or was it jus meant to be this way? whatever be it...i know one things for sure...its not easy for me...and i know no one understands what i mean cuz everyone...including my own mom never left her husband!! if i stayed with him a lifetime and was now away for a while i would have still not been this sad...but i hardly spent any time at all...whatever time was there...was almost stolen completely by relatives, rituals, etc etc
So many thoughts hit me whenever i think about my few days with him...but all i can say is...whatever it was...it was just not ENOUGH...
I wish i could be wherever he is now!! i miss him...very very much!!
One of the many things thats gonna remind me of Bangalore...some of the very few first days that i got to spend with my dear hubby...some of the few places we visited and some of the few nok jhoks we had...all the things that will always bring a smile to my face whenever i will think of them...some of the few small things that have become the sweetest memories for a lifetime...one more addition to the small list of these sweet things is this song which had to secure a place in my blog cuz i just cant stop humming it... :)
A very simple song with unique lyrics...not even a very intricately designed song...not much melody to it either...and still i catch it as a song i will never forget...as a song that kept getting played on the bangalore FMs again and again and somehow made me enjoy the song so much that now is one of my fave songs...am jus too hooked on this one.. :)
Aisi uljhi nazar unse hatt ti nahi
Daant se reshmi dor katt ti nahi
Umr kab ki baras ke sufaid ho gayi
Kaari badri jawani ki chatt ti nahi
Walla ye dhadkan badhne lagi hai
Chehre ki rangat udne lagi hai
Darr lagta hai tanha sone mein ji
Dil toh bacha hai ji
Dil toh bacha hai ji
Thoda kacha hai ji
Actually i like the whole song each and every line of it...but the best line i like is:
Hai zor karein kitna shor karein
Bewajah baaton pe ainwe gaur karein
Dil sa koi kameena nahi
And i go on...i jus cant stop singing this song... :)
Memoirs...does that sound like i have spent a lifetime and setting out to write Memoirs from my life!!!
Not literally but ya...i feel like i've already spent a LIFETIME away from my Life my Husband...its been about a week since i saw him and it already feels like a Lifetime...it really is difficult to stay away from your love after the wedding...Things become really terrible...you feel that keeping yourself busy is one way to escape the pain...indulging in some life improving activities is another way of forgetting about it...but how many ever ways you tend to invent to stay away from the pain...the only thoughts that you are gonna end up with are finally HIS!!
Its so true...i have started work, i have started cooking, i have started talking to my old friends...but still all i can think about is HIM...the only thought that makes me alive is that when and how can we be together in a more practical way...practical cuz i dont want to act stupid by getting overwhelmed by my emotions and doing something that i will regret the rest of my life...sometimes i feel that staying away from your husband after just 10 days of your wedding itself is a stupid thing...but i guess lifes no more as easy at it used to be about 10 yrs back!!!
Living miles away from him...the memories of our days together leave a smile on my face...a pain of not being with him...and also a longing to experience the same...i wish i could turn back time and make it stop on those blessed days...but ya i cant stop going on dreamin...reality is...i am here now and i miss those days...lot of my married frnds used 2 tell me that the first few months after the marriage is what is the most important thing in deciding your future happiness as a family...i cant comment on whether its true or not...but i can surely say i wanted to experience that importance...i wanted to be there to know what it feels like!! being here i dont even feel like i am married anymore!! i dont feel like i am experiencing whatever a newly wedded girl should have been experiencing...i feel sad to be so far from my family...i feel sad to be alone here... :(
The memories of my first few days with my husband will always be very special to me...whether there were nok jhoks or debates or roothna manana or naaraazgi or pyari baatein or pyare sapne...all i know is there was what i miss now!!
Some of the first few things that every girl does after getting married...getting to know your new family...the realisation that you do not belong to your parents anymore...that now onwards you are going to be associated with your husband everywhere...this realisation comes once you are out of your honeymoon days... and step into the real new family. You see everyone eager to meet you, everyone trying to grab a free slot in the day to invite you for lunch, dinner,snacks etc etc...and once you step into your new family you have to be a part of knowing what your new family is all about...who actually is your extended family, husbands siblings, cousins, uncles aunts, close friends etc etc...its a whole lot of new things for the new bride...and at each and every step she has to trust her husband for that...she doesnt know anything about these new things...and has to be led by her husband...in what way to behave with the family, what to talk...what not to talk...what to ask...where not to go...etc etc...and for all this THE most important person...the immediate help...is your own HUSBAND.. :)
How much a girl needs to trust her husband when she has left a whole big loving family to become a part of a completely new family...where she doesnt know anyone...whom there might not be anyone whom she can call her own...except her sweet husband...and for this kind of sweetness for your husband...you gotto learn about him first dear bride.. :)
Many of my spinster frnds will be eager enuff to say...this is why they give the courting time between engagement and wedding so that the husband and wife (To Be) can get to know each other better...so that they can understand each other...their likings...their strengths, weaknesses, angry nerve, etc etc...but trust me dear frnds...whatever may be the amount of courting time you get...you will never know your husband when he is your Fiance'.
Some of my married frnds told me...Life starts after Marriage...and now i agree with all of them who told me that...some of the elders adviced me saying life with your fiance' is much different than life with the same guy when he becomes your husband...Hats off to all your experience...cuz after more than a year of courting time for me i was damn sure that i know my man more than the required amount...but as experience counts...i am grounded to believe the prior.. :)
Life does start with Marriage...actually a whole new life starts after Marriage...cuz you not only belong to a new world...you are also part of a new being...someone's made you a part of his life...and thats a very BIG thing...you begin to lose control over your own life cuz may be when you were a spinster you lived your life at your own terms...you did whatever YOU wanted to do...but now you start doing things for someone else...for your husband...you dress the way he likes it...you do your hair the way he likes it...you cook wat he likes to eat...you hear his music...you go places where he takes you...you talk the way he tells/likes you to talk...you start doing things which he likes...making him happy...and gradually before you know...his likes become yours...living his way becomes your way of life...and you become his...and that is when the trust starts sprouting from within...cuz by now...you have become a part of him and he a part of you...or what we call as one soul in two beings...
One thing worth noticing in whatever i wrote above is...i have written from the point of view of a newly wedded bride...but the newly wedded groom aslo goes thru a phase of understanding his better half...of a completely new phase of knowing why she is his BETTER half...he learns to know his flaws which are rightly surrogated by his wife...he learns that there is someone who is making an ample effort to provide for him that he had always wanted from a partner...he understands that this someone is the one whose gonna fulfill all that he dreamt of being a bachelor for his future...he learns all the ways in which she is moulding herself to become one with him...and that is when he realizes that he has a new responsibility...someones thrusting her whole trust on him for everything...and that is when he learns to please his wife...to provide her with all the support that she is expecting of him...learns to provide her with all the love that she needs the most at this time...and all this finally unites the wedded couple in oneness.
But things are often not as simple as written above...each step each phase takes time...takes efforts...takes courage...takes patience...there are times when you have to learn to GIVE without asking back...and there are other times when you have to learn to shed off your EGO...there are times when you have to know that you have to LET GO of the mistakes...while there are times when you have to learn to SAY NO to mistakes...you have to learn to become a good decision maker when situations put you in a judgement call on matters that matter...
No One's perfect...neither you nor your spouse...but you have to learn to mould your imperfections to lead to a perfect marriage...The art of understanding your husband is neither easy nor tough...not easy cuz you are learning a whole new person...not tough cuz that is the way of life for you now on...Its a lot of mixed emotions...and its necessary for a girl that she become a WIFE before she becomes a mother...cuz the art of understanding her husband takes her thru a journey which make her a true WOMAN...THE most important change in a girl's life that will transform her from being just a girl to a real WOMAN.
I am MARRIED!!
Yess finally i am married and i am too happy about it...the feeling that you own someone in your life...and that you belong to someone at the same time...its jus too sparkling...i've been longing for this status for so many days...not that i was desperate...but just that i wanted to really belong to someone...actually be a part of someone's life...
As every girl does...i also dreamt of my wedding right from when i was just a child...i dreamt of a white wedding gown...in a small chapel...an alter with an arch of white lilies...with alot of flowers around me...a huge wedding cake...me walking the aisle with my dad...with my whole family beside me...with a lot of people greeting me...blessing me...but most of all...i dreamt of a man...a man who will love me like the way i had read in books and seen in movies...(i know thats too unreal...but c'mon i am jus talking of all that i ever dreamt)...my dad giving my hand in his hands...me holding his hands with pure love and trust...looking into his eyes and blushing demurely...happily conceding my whole life in his hands...and i am HIS.
I dreamt of a perfect wedding...but more of a perfect Husband...and though nothings perfect in this world...i got perfectly what i always wanted...a perfect wedding with a loving man.. :)
To My LIFE...
I am married...and i belong to you...you own me and i own you...i really want to spend this lifetime loving you and living for you...for in you i have found everything that i always dreamt of...Thank you so much for making me yours.
Some words from the song i wanted to sing for our WEDDING..
From this moment, Life has begun
From this moment, You are the one
Right beside you is where i belong
From this moment on...
From this moment i have been blessed
I Live only for your happiness
and for your love, i'd give my last breath
From this moment on...
From this moment as long as i live
i will love you, i promise you this
there is nothing i wouldnt give
From this moment on...
You're the reason i believe in Love
and you're the answer to my prayers from up above
You and i will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you...
I will Love you, as long as i live
From this moment on...
-Shania Twain
I do swear that i will always be there. i'd give anything and everything and i will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse, i will love you with every beat of my heart.
I am MARRIED to you and i wanna cherish this for my lifetime.. :)